You must pray to God and ask what you want. Ask for:
Complete satisfaction in my heart, Joy in my heart, Bliss in my heart, so that the whole world becomes blissful.
Give me Love, Love, that I could love the whole world and that the whole world becomes one in Love.
Give salvation to the entire humanity, which is suffering.
Take me to Your Feet.
Cleanse me with Thy Love.
Now see if there’s God or not. You can feel it within yourself. He hears you. He is the Glory of all the Glory. He loves you. He protects you. He guides you. He has created you to really be His Love. But accept it. Any time any thought is coming to you, pray; and you will be moving in the way of that Ocean which is Unconscious mind, which starts with thoughtless awareness. If you cannot become thoughtless, you pray to Him:
Forgive me for what I’ve done, and forgive those who have done harm to me.
Shri Mataji, 1975